Saturday, September 14, 2019

Did you think you ever will (come back)


Have you ever felt…
the hand of life that’s dealt is cruelty prone to fold
and wagers old our losses condone
Spot offender’s bitter sparking part
considered the jitters and shiver simmered
at sharp inner art intact

On sinners emitter bark
suppose and hearts woe may scar
skins hidden incisions get bigger as lash impacts
again compacting then the old sin’s fold
in revisions thick amending each chip the
walls that resist all in climb

Times combat around and in racking pounds
our balance of hate asking us to forsake
in misgivings great leaps of faith
in love create bridge all gaping fates
and forge to make new paths beginning,
and winnings take to questioning state of a heaven’s rebate guarantees
because though love’s concern learning clause of no return policy
now reflecting doubt in worried clout to me

Did you think or ever will?

Foundations of occasion havens
fell to hell and cracked the whip and swell
the tips infallible collision

Figures start in shivers carped
for all to stare simple visions aware
of ingrown snaring expeditions

In mission condoned admission
alone for the tracks own plight exposed

honed to the bone the perceptions sown
and pose sight to reap what’s grown between the rows

In through light you seek
sleek bright shone slivers
decay and withers away
in echo’s delay the replays
we obey in tune inspired to bloom
and compose to break the hold slowly shaking the ache
within our soul past control create
a dark lake’s relating pace in undertow

Did you ever think
or ever will you know in discreet below defeat and darkness chilling?

Your life was pill
encased with thorns be stilling in building crew
Filling the escape in each breath break
through in gasps escaping, forsaking relapse mask

You adventure on your own
and shadows sown demanded as true
Panic ensued in manic confuse
your sight abused beyond the light of the throne

Thrown down in sounds aloud
for the proud to welcome the darker farther visitors
Inhibitors from shallow shadow
come in hallowed chants be sung,

In done, and darkness unrelented, offended and rescinded
in simply emptied lung words hung impending
among the breed of evil deeds
brings now avow in heeds allow the sickness to be purged
the everlasting urge with ignoring the warnings heard….Now surge!
Did you think, Or do you think you ever will?

In severed ties…
Your happiness alive
is to poor kin as voracious lies erase the skies in place
Contrived as a seta dive
embedded and in repetitive full levied to pull
The wool of fool’s contraceptive tool to compromise
A farewell lies high in your eyes to now not allow
the cries to impair and rising in their callings
beware the questionnaire

Hey there did you ever care? That life will always be
Hallways endless past amassed in senseless task depravity
To twist and pack your sense attack stretch on into eternity

Did you think, Or ever will?
If you did then would you kill
The will to fill voids annoyed, diploid and then to steal
And build wall and halls alike, for us and every night

When replayed our life, to what we want and what we still
Reveal in sleeps retreats conceal in potent seal

Did you ever stop to ask
looking back on where past you’ve lately been
Flatly wind beneath in form discreet blow
infernal foes of woe
in task again
Attaching foul sapling spring
screams in trapping dreams and schemes of sin

Did you ever think your life was going
Forever and eternally down
Cross in pounds upon your back, crowns of thorns and storms of hate reborn thundering and plundering in sound… rebound!!!!!!!!!!

Resounding in surrounded calls inbound
To turn your life around
To change the compounded hounding course profoundly
To safer havened roads
then blaze astray from darkest ways
And take a journey home

Did you ever think your contact flow
Would lead tracks to places none past
and not to go
Back to the things you know you will
and not alone with days free to night slay thee still
Did you think in blue no passage new
 in minds gash two parallel clashes lead will not reveal
Thrown away your keys and cast memories
to misdirection’s contact
in harassed reflection sections
shone illusion bow and twist low the light in shades
of the sides within a maze of wispy haze
fades faceless inception grows through poisoned blow
poised to aim below famed set of grueling frets
cancer comes an answer and undone solutions
mystery now fades in shades
for glaze repays and betrayed the ignorant slave’s amazed intrusions
made not today but pave the way
saving and obeying way to wander so far from the throne
Did you think the day was far away that you couldn’t travel home
Can fallen angels return alone?
Could we really come back home?
I guess the answer slips in me only will I see
If I clip these wings of traveling
And fly back home


Deep Warning Breath


Excluding taste for refuting all truths replaced

Facts hewed but not knowing bound

Abstract the ground in places found lacking face,

Behind yet consign circumstance far down

The lines we dance around societies grace

That resigns vindicated in time to suffer an affliction profound

Eluding judgments the blind erase all trace

A Treated case disease leaves choked no sound

In corrupting agrees an addiction to please none waste  

A breath past forsaken now will I give hating the fulfilling wake

A step intact still shaken but taking back

To see how far in lies the eye of rhythm par can break

To let the sick you see how quick compromise can act…



Force confusion, contorted infusion report to distort and illusion’s contract

Source solution sows in convoluted and deep rooted

Chaff between the rows love never grows

Unseen the saluted fiend has sight keen to aim it’s throws

To pose no foes in right oppose the same, vain up rise of souls

Ripe in pick a slight and slick to rain from high a lie falls low

To feed the fruit with greed in suit soon reap from branch that bend and bow



(insane) Just like the rest...


I cannot ever silence, The voices in my head
Screaming out in violence, I know they want me dead

Close your eyes, Forget all your fears
Blot out the skies, For a thousand years
(C) Truth is pain, Life is death
We're all insane, Just like the rest

Silence in my thoughts, Lies within my mind
The insanity never stops, When all inside are blind

Open your eyes, Taste of my tears
Forget all the lies, Of my darkest deep fears
(C) Truth is pain, Life is death
We're all insane, Just like the rest

A hollowed beast within, An angel, wings without
My heart is filled with sin, My mind with fear and doubt

Slit your wrist, And cut your throat
Bloody your fist, With curses spoke
(C) Truth is pain, Life is death
We're all insane, Just like the rest

Go to sleep, In bed with death
Insanity keep, My last cold breath
(C) Truth is pain, Life is death
We're all insane, Just like the rest
(C) Truth is pain, Life is death
We're all insane, Just like the rest!



Journey of heartbreak


Evening has passed into eternal night,  Sunlight forever slipping away

My heart is far from being right,  Alone and wishing for someone to say

Where could things have gone,  To take me down this darkened road
I turn around and the path is long,  My direction is lost and my will has grown old

I see now I am climbing further down,  Away from the person I used to be
I scream for help but there is no sound,  The definition of myself is no longer me

The promise of morning light has kept me,  Hoping that I will last another year
I only wished to just be free,  But freedom is drowned in tears

I hate myself for what I have done,  When I walked away from all I loved
I just can't fight the feelings that come,  Swallowing me, hollowing me, my love

Why did I even bother to fall for you,  When I knew that it would break my heart
I just wanted to have something true,  Love is something of what I wanted a part

One day my broken heart will recover,  When I find the place I am searching for
Truth told me to leave my lover,  But truth tears me apart even more

This path grows colder as the night stretches on,  My memories carry me even further away
My choices are made however wrong,  I just wished that I could stay...